Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own. Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Let those of us who are mature think this way, and if in anything you think otherwise, God will reveal that also to you. Only let us hold true to what we have attained. Philippians 3:12-16
The hardest thing I try to do is forgetting my past. I think about what I have done and it haunts me. I know God has forgiven me of all my sins, but I cannot forgive myself. So I find myself constantly looking backward. The problem with this is when I am looking behind me I cannot see the road ahead and I am not looking at my goal.
I wish I could say this problem is unique with me but I know better. Even Paul had problems with forgetting his past. He calls himself wretched and the chief sinner. But Paul also knew that he could not dwell on past mistakes. He had work to do. He had people to tell the Good News so he kept moving forward.
We have a choice to make. We can let the past imprison us or we can acknowledge our mistakes and focus on what lies ahead. We need to be like the farmer plowing his field. In order to make straight rows he picks a spot off in the distance and keeps looking ahead. If he looks too long to the side or behind he will have crooked rows. Like the farmer we cannot spend too much time looking behind at our past or looking to the distractions on the side we need to keep plowing ahead.
We have a goal, heaven. On the way to the goal we have a job, spreading the Good News. We need to be sure that nothing keeps us from either.
Have a blessed day,