So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin. Romans 7:21-25
Have you ever cried out like Paul in today’s verses? I know I have. There have been times when I cry to God, “How can you possible love someone as bad as me?” At times like these I envy the un-believer. They go through life unconscious of their sins. But mine are like blinding lights causing me anguish and pain. I struggle. I get discouraged. I fail. I find myself reliving past sins unable to let them go.
The God directs me to Paul’s writings. Here is a man that arguable had he not existed then Christianity might still be a small Jewish sect. Paul, who saw the risen Christ. The man who Jesus handpicked to bring the good news to the Gentiles is just like me. He too struggled with sin. He too went through the eternal struggle between mind and body.
We don’t know what sins Paul struggled with. We don’t need to know. I think God chose not to have Paul reveal his sins. That way, whatever sin we are dealing with we can believe that just maybe Paul struggled with the same sin. I find comfort know that a man chosen by God had the same struggles that I have. Then I think I too can get through this. I may still sin, but God will not forsake me. He continues to work in me, changing me little by little and day by day.
Yes, wretched man that I am, God still loves me.
Have a blessed day,